General Discussion

literally just being in public. i always feel like everyone is staring at me & judging me, even if there aren't any people in sight. like when i'm grocery shopping or something i'm usually in and out in just a few minutes because i walk so fast don't allow myself to linger anywhere. also if i'm walking past ANY building that has windows with curtains my brain is fully convinced that every person in the building is standing behind those and is watching me walk past. all of this gets amplified when i'm wearing sunglasses because apparently i'm always wearing them at the wrong time which causes people to stare even more lmao

also talking to people about my interests. doesn't even matter if the other person is interested in the same thing. i'm just so used to people either not caring or being annoyed by it that i can't get my mouth open anymore even when i actually really care about a topic

@QhaZomb

I second your trigger with babies and small children. Can't stand the little brats. They're noisy, smelly, and not cute in the slightest. I'd hate to be a parent, having to deal with one of those insufferable creatures day in and day out with little to no respite. It sounds miserable. Thank god I'm asexual.

As for my own insecurities... criticism is the big one. I'm a bit of a perfectionist, and I fully understand when something isn't up to snuff and can fix it on my own, but for some reason having someone else pick my work to shreds is absolutely devastating. I'll either get embarrassingly emotional and start all the way over (despite only needing to change something small), or lock down and refuse to change anything.

Expressing emotions in a healthy way is another big insecurity. I'm an absolute basket case emotionally - I can't take criticism, I've got anxiety, I can't maintain a successful relationship (be it platonic or romantic), and I'm still trying to cope with my heavily conservative upbringing. Usually I'll just start crying, causing people to get more concerned than they should be and attracting unwanted attention when they try to figure out what's going on. In all honesty, most of the time I don't even know what set me off - I just can't physically express myself any other way, and it's aggravating to no end.

I also get really insecure when talking about my interests - I tend to ramble and sidetrack myself with semi-related information, and when people don't chime in or comment I get worried that I'm annoying them. It's not a hyperfixation thing either - I'm just really passionate about what I like, and sometimes those things need context to explain! Maybe it's because I also interrupt conversations a lot and have to be told to shut up that I'm not used to being able to speak my mind freely.

I'm scared of loud noises and needles. I seriously hate the vacuum- >:(

as for insecurities, i'm kind of insecure about my feet and my mouth. idk why
being mocked for my interests is another one, too. and im worried that i come off as a bit annoying and that people won't really want to be my friend

@QhaZhomb sorry, this is a little unrelated but- how come people put Homestuck on DNI lists? I thought it was just a webcomic-

There's some sort of blip in the logical part of my brain, and therefore I'm terrified of mushrooms. I want to know why this is, but I don't care too much why, as long as there aren't any mushrooms.

I have an almost irrational fear of deep water and heights. For deep water, the fear extends even in video games!! Whenever I play ARK, I have to have the camera not angled directly downwards, otherwise I start to panic... For heights, it's so bad that in my own dreams I can't even fly. Even being on planes for roughly 3 hours can be really rough on me...especially during take off and landing...

Couple that with the fact that I want to travel the world and you have a recipe for a panic attack on a 6+ hour flight...

Also, I have vermiphobia, to the point where if rice has a red sauce on it, especially if meat is involved, it can trigger my phobia...

im super scared of messing up while doing things, or people watching me do physical exercise.
ive definitely had a few panic attacks over the exercise thing. my face gets super red super easily (most often it happens if its hot out or its sunny) and just in general i think im pretty gross so those things combined makes for a ton of anxiety involving exercise. the only thing i dont get a lot of anxiety about is riding my bike, because i can wear regular clothes and theres a ton of wind in my face so i get less red

I don't like being carried, and I will shriek and demand to be put down if I am. My boyfriend wants to carry me (and he can), but I refuse to let him because I'm pretty heavy and I don't want someone to really feel my weight, even though he is completely aware of how heavy I am. It's just one of my sore spots.

Phones ringing. It makes me so uncomfortable, I start having a slight panic attack if it gets to the fourth or fifth ring. Especially if it's my phone, but other people's phones do it just as bad to me. I have YELLED at people to answer their phones before because I was so uncomfortable hearing it ring.

These are just the ones I classify as legit personally ridiculous.

• This one is thanks to Blackwater City in Ratchet & Clank (2002): being caught underwater/anything without a way out.
• Walking along curbs
• Riding bicycles