@Gula
“What have we become?” The thought crosses my mind occasionally, but I brush it away. That question leads down paths I don’t want to follow. I don’t need to know where they go or what their destination is. I know that already. They go to Sadness, their destination is Guilt and Regret.
And I cannot bear Sadness, I cannot visit the Land of Guilt and Regret. I have work to be done. An empire to rule, a land to care for, a people to guide.
But in the night, even when my body is at rest, my mind is restless still.
I suppose I should make some record of our hopes and trials. Maybe in the future, when I and my ill-fated friends are long gone, maybe a new group of young spirited revolutionaries will rise up. Maybe they will know where we went wrong. Maybe they can carry out our dreams to fruition.
Maybe fate will be kinder to them.
And so it is for them, the unknown hopefuls of the future, that I am writing this. They should know our story. They should know that revolution is not so easy as it seems, and the aftermath is even harder.
They should know that the tyrants who created the empire that spans the world were, once, just like them.
There were twelve of us originally. Twelve spirited youth in a desolate world full of clashing peoples. There was no such thing as peace back then, and the only occupation was war. Children were snatched away from their homes to be raised as soldiers. Oftentimes the ones who did the snatching were those of their own tribe, but it was not uncommon for children to be stolen away by enemy tribes and only see their families again as enemies on the battlefield.
Of our group, seven had been stolen from their homes to bolster my tribe’s ranks. They remembered little of their families, of their tribes, but even so, they knew they didn’t want it to happen to anyone else.
Us twelve were lucky. Trained well, lived in prosperous enough homes with caring families, with the will and drive to succeed. We had enough to eat, finely crafted weapons and armor. We did not die, when so many others did.
And if our lot was not to die, then we must have had some purpose. We decided our purpose was to end the blood feuds, end the continual warring. Maybe, we said, our only reason for surviving through drought and famine and in bloodsoaked battlefields was to ensure no one else had to.
So we did what we had to. We insinuated our way into the other tribes, aiming to strike directly at the top. A few of our group seized opportunities to marry to an elderly leader’s child or niece or nephew, but as for the rest of us… well, we had practically been raised on the battlefield. Death and blood was what we knew.
One leader toppled, dead in the middle of the night. No one was particularly worried--becoming leader of a tribe that was always at war meant putting a target on one’s back. But then another leader fell, someone who had used wits and cunning to avoid that very target. His reputation was renowned, but they still found him, mysteriously, dead.
Our influence spread outwards like a spiral, leaving behind scores of dead leaders and panicked leaders’ families in our wake. And when we came to the insurmountable mountains in the northwest and the seas in the east and the desert in the south, we returned home.
Every tribe was in chaos. Never before had such a mass targeted spree occured. Never before had every single leader died in such a short amount of time that coincidence wasn’t even a joke to be spoken of.
Messenger falcons were sent out, bearing words of darkest ink. In just a few short weeks the entire continent knew just what had happened, and why. Surprisingly enough, many flocked to our cause. Mothers who had lost children, husbands who had lost wives, children who had lost their entire families. Twelve spirited youth with a dream of what things could be were now making that dream a reality with thousands amassing behind them. With that kind of power, it was easy enough to force everyone else to our will. Warmongers and blood-loving soldiers were dealt with quickly, before they could do any real damage.
In less than a year we had conquered the realm, united the numerous tribes under a single banner of peace. Finally, no more children would be stolen from their homes, nor sent to die before they could truly live. No more.
We twelve made an Inner Council, and held seats on an Outer Council along with representatives of the former tribes. But we had no idea how to govern. Our only thought had been to stop the endless needless bloodshed, and we had succeeded. Yet our work was not done.
The Outer Council was… inefficient, to say the least. Arguing and fighting day in and day out, whenever we met. No one--even previous high ranks in the former tribes--knew how best to govern such a wide array of land, with so many peoples. Nor could they agree on a simple plan of action. I grew weary of it, and persuaded my friends to agree in disbanding the Outer Council. It was doing nothing, but…. Even so inefficient and useless, the people still liked the idea of their own leaders, their own representatives.
Needless to say, they rebelled. Twelve youth had easily taken down tens or hundreds of people, but those had only been leaders, a concentrated strike. Against thousands we were nothing, and even those who had backed us from the very beginning were starting to turn on us.
What else were we supposed to do? We were all rulers of a new empire. We had no desire to lose that power, to once again feel helpless. What if the people overthrew us and returned once again to anarchy and war?
We weren’t willing to let that happen. Anyone caught leading rebellions was hanged publicly, and those suspected of rebellious behavior… well, they were hanged not-so-publicly. To maintain peace we became violent. What good would democracy be if the people would all die in battle before their time?
We had done what we had to before. We did what we had to again.
I don’t know, now, if that choice was good. If peace holds a higher value over freedom and free will, or if it’s the other way around. But our empire did remain strong, and relatively peaceful. We united the tribes, and now it’s as if they had never craved each other’s deaths only a generation ago. Was it all worth becoming tyrants and dictators? Is what we did really so bad? Is it bad enough to warrant the mobs beating down the castle doors even at this very moment? I am a tyrant, it is true, but I’d like to think it was--is--for a good reason. When they overthrow me at last, I hope they will read this, and remember what we set out to be, instead of what we became.
“What have we become?” The thought crosses my mind occasionally, but I brush it away. That question leads down paths I don’t want to follow. I don’t need to know where they go or what their destination is. I know that already. They go to Sadness, their destination is Guilt and Regret.
And I cannot bear Sadness, I cannot visit the Land of Guilt and Regret. I have work to be done. An empire to rule, a land to care for, a people to guide.
But in the night, even when my body is at rest, my mind is restless still.
I suppose I should make some record of our hopes and trials. Maybe in the future, when I and my ill-fated friends are long gone, maybe a new group of young spirited revolutionaries will rise up. Maybe they will know where we went wrong. Maybe they can carry out our dreams to fruition.
Maybe fate will be kinder to them.
And so it is for them, the unknown hopefuls of the future, that I am writing this. They should know our story. They should know that revolution is not so easy as it seems, and the aftermath is even harder.
They should know that the tyrants who created the empire that spans the world were, once, just like them.
There were twelve of us originally. Twelve spirited youth in a desolate world full of clashing peoples. There was no such thing as peace back then, and the only occupation was war. Children were snatched away from their homes to be raised as soldiers. Oftentimes the ones who did the snatching were those of their own tribe, but it was not uncommon for children to be stolen away by enemy tribes and only see their families again as enemies on the battlefield.
Of our group, seven had been stolen from their homes to bolster my tribe’s ranks. They remembered little of their families, of their tribes, but even so, they knew they didn’t want it to happen to anyone else.
Us twelve were lucky. Trained well, lived in prosperous enough homes with caring families, with the will and drive to succeed. We had enough to eat, finely crafted weapons and armor. We did not die, when so many others did.
And if our lot was not to die, then we must have had some purpose. We decided our purpose was to end the blood feuds, end the continual warring. Maybe, we said, our only reason for surviving through drought and famine and in bloodsoaked battlefields was to ensure no one else had to.
So we did what we had to. We insinuated our way into the other tribes, aiming to strike directly at the top. A few of our group seized opportunities to marry to an elderly leader’s child or niece or nephew, but as for the rest of us… well, we had practically been raised on the battlefield. Death and blood was what we knew.
One leader toppled, dead in the middle of the night. No one was particularly worried--becoming leader of a tribe that was always at war meant putting a target on one’s back. But then another leader fell, someone who had used wits and cunning to avoid that very target. His reputation was renowned, but they still found him, mysteriously, dead.
Our influence spread outwards like a spiral, leaving behind scores of dead leaders and panicked leaders’ families in our wake. And when we came to the insurmountable mountains in the northwest and the seas in the east and the desert in the south, we returned home.
Every tribe was in chaos. Never before had such a mass targeted spree occured. Never before had every single leader died in such a short amount of time that coincidence wasn’t even a joke to be spoken of.
Messenger falcons were sent out, bearing words of darkest ink. In just a few short weeks the entire continent knew just what had happened, and why. Surprisingly enough, many flocked to our cause. Mothers who had lost children, husbands who had lost wives, children who had lost their entire families. Twelve spirited youth with a dream of what things could be were now making that dream a reality with thousands amassing behind them. With that kind of power, it was easy enough to force everyone else to our will. Warmongers and blood-loving soldiers were dealt with quickly, before they could do any real damage.
In less than a year we had conquered the realm, united the numerous tribes under a single banner of peace. Finally, no more children would be stolen from their homes, nor sent to die before they could truly live. No more.
We twelve made an Inner Council, and held seats on an Outer Council along with representatives of the former tribes. But we had no idea how to govern. Our only thought had been to stop the endless needless bloodshed, and we had succeeded. Yet our work was not done.
The Outer Council was… inefficient, to say the least. Arguing and fighting day in and day out, whenever we met. No one--even previous high ranks in the former tribes--knew how best to govern such a wide array of land, with so many peoples. Nor could they agree on a simple plan of action. I grew weary of it, and persuaded my friends to agree in disbanding the Outer Council. It was doing nothing, but…. Even so inefficient and useless, the people still liked the idea of their own leaders, their own representatives.
Needless to say, they rebelled. Twelve youth had easily taken down tens or hundreds of people, but those had only been leaders, a concentrated strike. Against thousands we were nothing, and even those who had backed us from the very beginning were starting to turn on us.
What else were we supposed to do? We were all rulers of a new empire. We had no desire to lose that power, to once again feel helpless. What if the people overthrew us and returned once again to anarchy and war?
We weren’t willing to let that happen. Anyone caught leading rebellions was hanged publicly, and those suspected of rebellious behavior… well, they were hanged not-so-publicly. To maintain peace we became violent. What good would democracy be if the people would all die in battle before their time?
We had done what we had to before. We did what we had to again.
I don’t know, now, if that choice was good. If peace holds a higher value over freedom and free will, or if it’s the other way around. But our empire did remain strong, and relatively peaceful. We united the tribes, and now it’s as if they had never craved each other’s deaths only a generation ago. Was it all worth becoming tyrants and dictators? Is what we did really so bad? Is it bad enough to warrant the mobs beating down the castle doors even at this very moment? I am a tyrant, it is true, but I’d like to think it was--is--for a good reason. When they overthrow me at last, I hope they will read this, and remember what we set out to be, instead of what we became.