Characters:
Britannic,
Edmund Fitzgerald
Warnings: mentions of death (just by virtue of the characters being ghosts)
Feedback is always welcome and appreciated!
October 12 2021 wrote:
What do you say to someone who's seen it all?
Britannic was no stranger to loneliness and envy. These were emotions she'd grown accustomed to over the years, particularly after she'd died, but that familiarity did little to dull the ache. Gods, how she wished things could be different.
She tore at the dirt with her talons, although she didn't bother trying to make her claws corporeal enough to really touch the grass. It was raining, but each droplet passed through her body, creating a sensation like a light breeze. Britannic didn't mind; in life, she'd resided in the lightning flight's vast desert domain, where little actual rain fell alongside the arcs of electricity that crackled so often through the sky. What she did mind, however, was the wind that blew in from the roiling sea, bitter and unforgiving, and the fact that every living dragon was sheltered inside, where she didn't want to go - somehow, being inside with others felt even lonelier.
The wind grew colder, turning downright icy. Britannic hardly noticed.
A scent not unlike wet dog wafted over her, and she whirled around to see a shaggy red-and-white gaoler standing there, towering over her. Britannic's eyes widened in shock; this dragon was Edmund Fitzgerald, another ghost who had been persuaded to linger near the Lanternlight Clan while Higanbana tried to find a way for her to move on, and she wasn't known to routinely approach others, living or otherwise.
Yet here she was, right next to Britannic, looking down at the skydancer with pale eyes. She settled back on her haunches, wrapping her long tail around her paws, and all the while she said nothing, only stared out to sea. Britannic wasn't sure what to say to her, if anything - after all, what does one say to someone who's seen so much already?
Edmund Fitzgerald was a much older ghost than Britannic; she'd lived a decently long life as well, and apparently this life had been an eventful one. Britannic didn't know how to talk to her.
"I see you around often," the gaoler said finally, turning to look down at Britannic again. "You always seem so lonely. I feel bad for you."
Britannic met her pale gaze, trying not to wrinkle her nose at the wet dog smell. "So why didn't you try talking to me sooner?"
Edmund Fitzgerald shrugged. "You're not very approachable, and I know better than to approach an angry spirit." Of course she would know; she too was a restless soul, and she was known to be particularly temperamental during the winter months. Britannic had heard stories about her lashing out at living dragons who saw and approached her during harsh winter gales.
The silence between them stretched out, punctuated only by the rumble of thunder out at sea. Edmund Fitzgerald wrapped her tail around Britannic, who ducked away from the gesture, having no desire to come into contact with her perpetually-soaked fur. The gaoler didn't seem remotely offended and simply tucked her tail back over her toes, and the silence continued.
"So," Edmund Fitzgerald said finally. "You have family here, don't you?"
A sharp pang pierced Britannic's soul, and she looked down at her claws. "I do," she replied. "My sister. Olympic."
"Ah. I know who you're talking about. She seems pretty pleasant. I think Higanbana mentioned her once, something about being afraid to tell her about you. Is she not as friendly as I think she is?"
"She doesn't like talking about me."
The gaoler nodded slowly, then tossed her head to clear a lock of wet hair away from her eyes. "Probably hurts too much, I imagine."
Britannic winced, throat growing tight. "I doubt it. She never paid me any attention while I was alive. She'd probably just rather forget about me."
"Too regretful about ignoring you?"
"Too preoccupied with stupid
Titanic."
"Oh." Edmund Fitzgerald's eyes widened. "I know Titanic. She's very friendly. You two are sisters?"
A growl escaped Britannic's throat, and she made no effort to stop it. "Unfortunately," she muttered. "I hate her. I hate her so much. She ruined my life."
"How so?"
"Why do you care?"
Edmund Fitzgerald shrugged yet again. "A good captain cares for her crew," she replied simply. "Tell me. How'd your sister ruin your life?"
"She died, that's how!" Britannic lashed her tail, anger welling up inside her like it had so many times before. "She died, and I had to grow up in her shadow! Olympic was always so preoccupied with her, always grieving for her, never spending any time with me! Nothing was ever about me. It was always all about Titanic! If she hadn't died, it wouldn't be like this. I wouldn't be an afterthought. Olympic would remember me. I'd be
happy, but stupid Titanic had to go die in the stupid Snowfall! She ruined my life, she screwed up Olympic too, I hate her, I hate her so much! She ruined my life!"
She broke off, chest heaving although she had no need to breathe. There was a long, almost agonizing pause, and Britannic braced herself for the response she'd gotten so many times before:
she didn't mean to, didn't want to die.
Instead, Edmund Fitzgerald nodded thoughtfully. "Have you considered," she mused, "that your quarrel may actually be with Olympic?"
Britannic's lip curled up in a snarl. "No," she snapped. "It's Titanic's fault that Olympic's like this. If she hadn't gone and died-"
"Now, wait a minute," Edmund Fitzgerald replied, holding up a big paw to silence Britannic. "Hear me out. It sounds to me like you're really upset because Olympic neglected you while you were alive, but you don't want to admit you're angry at her because you love her and want her approval."
"For the love of the Stormcatcher, stop psychoanalyzing me! You don't even know me!"
"Fair enough. But you can love someone and still be angry at them."
"Stop."
"Sure."
The two ghosts lapsed into silence once again, and although Britannic said nothing she was grateful for the way Edmund Fitzgerald made no attempt to push the matter. The storm raged on.
"So," Edmund Fitzgerald said finally. "Do you sing?"
"Excuse me?"
"Do you sing?"
"I've never sung a song in my life."
"Would you like me to teach you one?"
Britannic stared at her, bewildered. "Not particularly, no. Why?"
"Lifts the spirits," the gaoler replied with a shrug. "We could keep talking instead. Tell me about a happy time from when you were alive. Surely you weren't angry
all the time, right?"
There was a long silence. "My clan used to go to these beauty pageants," Britannic said finally. "And every year there was this pearlcatcher, Aquitania, who would be participating. She was my age. And the first year I went I snuck backstage and ended up talking to her, and I did it again the next year, and then the next, because we somehow ended up being friends. She... she really liked me, and she obviously cared so much, and..." She trailed off, not sure if she should go into more detail. "She lives here now, actually. I have to watch her just like I watch Olympic, knowing I can't really talk to her anymore."
Edmund Fitzgerald nodded. "I know how that feels," she murmured, voice so soft it was barely audible over the sounds of the storm. "It's a hard thing to cope with, isn't it? You should try talking to Higanbana," she added. "Send your friend a message."
Oh. Britannic had never really considered that possibility before. "Maybe... maybe I will," she said, surprising herself with the confidence in her voice. "Maybe I can finally tell her- no, no, I can't do that. If I tell her she'll never find anyone else."
"It's your choice what to say," Edmund Fitzgerald replied. "I can't give you guidance in that area. That's your decision to make. Looks like the storm's letting up a bit," she added a moment later. "That's my cue to leave, I suppose. Nice dramatic note to leave this conversation on." She patted Britannic's head with one paw, sending cold water trickling down the skydancer's back. "I'll see you around," she said. "And if you want, the song thing's still on the table. I can teach you a freighter shanty or two."
With that, she was launching herself over the edge of the cliff, her stubby wings beating furiously, carrying her off into the night. Britannic stared after her and then turned away, still pondering their conversation.