Brightleap hurried along with the group at first, paws skimming quickly over the uneven, unfamiliar terrian almost like she was trotting in a horse like fashion. Now she slowed down into a fast walk as she hung back near the edge of the patrol, head slightly bowed as she quickly got absorbed into her own mind.
The first thing her thoughts zipped to was her former leader, Foxstar. Ever since she had opened her eyes to the light of the world, she had been under the tom's autheority as leader, and she had respected him above most other cats. To see him perform his duties to his clan daily had given her a sense of purpose; to do her part as a Marshclan cat to provide for her fellow cats. In comparison to his old self, the tom with a deep black coat that proudly sported an owl skull in battle, the one who had watched over her and all the other Marshclan cats, she was fearful to see, witness, what he had been reduced to.
Her ears flicked as a few leaves fell away from a tree, and swivelling her head around she almost expected to see an empty, savage husk of her former leader. Seeing nothing of the sort, she cursed herself for being startled so easily, despite the stressful last couple of days she has had. Any other warrior would take it without her level of complaint, she managed to convince herself. Up ahead, her new leader whispered something to Copperfur, and she strained her ears in attempt to catch even a sliver of the words spoken between them, but failed. Sure, they could have been discussing about Foxstar, and she could have left her mind in peace and left it as that, but she couldn't shake the feeling that it was about her. Was Maplestar having regrets about having the black and white she-cat tag along?
If so, was she right to feel so? What would she even do when they got there and confronted Foxstar?
...loyalty to my new leader comes first... She whispered to herself, uncertainty swirling in her gut like crow food. But just that thought had contradictions she didn't wish to face. She abandoned one leader and clan, how could she hold her loyalty together for a new leader, even if said leader was Maplestar? She wouldn't, couldn't run from the physical encounter; it wasn't in her to avoid choices when they came own to a final decision. Her thoughts seemed to entangle themselves, finding pros and cons, logical and irrational ways of how having one or the other would be best.
But then her thoughts landed on one last factor. The kits, probably mewing for milk back in the Stormclan nursery right this moment. When Foxstar had acted, it was for his own selfish needs and desires, not for the need of the kits or his clan. Maplestar had brought them, her, and Pebblepaw into her clan when they left and needed a place to stay, and offered the kits a life they wouldn't have had in Marshclan.
Brightleap's steps turned steadier, and she hurried to keep up with the others. She glanced at Maplestar, gratefulness shimmering in her eyes for the briefest of moments before turning into a blank stare again, and turning around she prepared herself to face Foxstar and have her loyalty exercised for her new leader.
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