@Catmeow1
Behind a screen. Shallow words, deep meaning. They talk to me, because they cannot see my face, cannot see the monster that I am.
Beautiful. My heart is sad, but it soars when I think of the freedom I have when I am with them. They seem to really care.
Perhaps I am mistaken, but maybe, just maybe they truly love me for who I am.
Not my scarred face. Not my rough words. Not my clumsy limbs.
But my words. My spirit. My love for them.
How to describe this feeling? Is it twisted, how the world and the people on the other side of the screen seem more real and more loving than my own friends and family?
Is it twisted that when I think of them, I think of light and love, but when I think of everyone in my real life, I think of darkness and sorrow and hate?
Their forgiveness was never mine, not when they saw who I was, inside and out.
But these people, behind this screen... They care. They give me a chance.
Do I deserve it? Maybe I don't. But am I really a monster, like the ones who have seen me seem to think?
Is it twisted? The thoughts going through my head. That I would trade my friends, my family. For these people I've never met.
Just words on a screen. But they strike my heart, my soul. Deeper, deeper, than any real words ever go.
The pain and the hurt, the bullets they fire, they ricochet when my heart is full.
Full of the joys behind the screen.
I must know. Would they still love me if they knew? They say they would.
But I don't know if that's the truth.
Take off my mask. Show them reality.
A monster in the place of someone they thought they loved.
And now, alone.
I miss them. So much. Too much.
Is it twisted that I miss someone I don't even know?
Behind a screen. Shallow words, deep meaning. They talk to me, because they cannot see my face, cannot see the monster that I am.
Beautiful. My heart is sad, but it soars when I think of the freedom I have when I am with them. They seem to really care.
Perhaps I am mistaken, but maybe, just maybe they truly love me for who I am.
Not my scarred face. Not my rough words. Not my clumsy limbs.
But my words. My spirit. My love for them.
How to describe this feeling? Is it twisted, how the world and the people on the other side of the screen seem more real and more loving than my own friends and family?
Is it twisted that when I think of them, I think of light and love, but when I think of everyone in my real life, I think of darkness and sorrow and hate?
Their forgiveness was never mine, not when they saw who I was, inside and out.
But these people, behind this screen... They care. They give me a chance.
Do I deserve it? Maybe I don't. But am I really a monster, like the ones who have seen me seem to think?
Is it twisted? The thoughts going through my head. That I would trade my friends, my family. For these people I've never met.
Just words on a screen. But they strike my heart, my soul. Deeper, deeper, than any real words ever go.
The pain and the hurt, the bullets they fire, they ricochet when my heart is full.
Full of the joys behind the screen.
I must know. Would they still love me if they knew? They say they would.
But I don't know if that's the truth.
Take off my mask. Show them reality.
A monster in the place of someone they thought they loved.
And now, alone.
I miss them. So much. Too much.
Is it twisted that I miss someone I don't even know?