Chapter 12: Things That I Can Understand,
Things That I Refuse To
Things That I Refuse To
“Move it.”
Muddle stood beside Lyric’s belly, resisting the sudden impulse to kick the closest patch of her leathery skin as hard as he could. During what, to Muddle, had felt like an immeasurably long time– made longer by both of the Dragons’ obvious dismissal of Muddle’s genius in creating the shelter– Lyric had unwound herself from the circular hearth and laid her garments a ways from it. She moved indiscriminately– nearly thundering over him twice– and, once she had finished, curled back around the fire and stretched her massive wings up and out so that they absorbed most of its heat.
And Muddle was cold.
“Oh? What is it Muddle?” she said dismissively, barely bothering to open her eyes.
“Obviously,” he heard his voice rise and grimaced, trying in a lower affectation after a moment, “Obviously, you’ve managed to position yourself in the worst possible place–”
Lyric shifted, still distant and careless, “Alright. Where is a better place then? There’s only so much room in here, you know?”
“It’s not the physical– You’re just–!” Muddle composed himself again, “You’re blocking the fire– With your stupid wings.”
He paused, feeling strange and foolish for being in a situation where he had to ask anyone to move their wings, and was about to tack on an additional insult to the statement when Lyric’s claws closed around his tail. He let out a yelp, squirming as she hoisted him awkwardly over her shoulder and tried to set him down on the rim of the hearth– nearly dropping him into the fire.
“St-stop– D-d-don’t– What are you d-d-doing– ah–!”
He struck the stone belly first and felt fresh pain shoot from his old wounds, his eyes watering.
“Sorry,” said Lyric, raising her head so that one of her pale green eyes peaked over the edge of the stone, “I thought you’d catch yourself,” before it dropped out of sight.
Muddle muttered a few curses under his breath– descriptions of Lyric she would probably fail to understand the severity of– and curled in on himself while he tried to ignore his tail or the remains of his wings or the frills that seemed to occupy his peripheral vision at all times. He swallowed and glanced down at The Ring.
The dark, twisting blemish had grown.
Why does it keep… he clutched at his elbows, afraid that if he stared at the dark shape on the gold it would expand again.
The shack had been made so effortlessly it reminded him of his first encounter with The Ring, the way it had hummed through him so faithfully when he’d been–
So why am I still a– he felt his claws dig into his strange spotted skin and shuddered, Like this? Why–?
Looking up, Muddle saw Virtue had stood and was padding closer to the hearth, their expression clouded with concern that was both compulsive and patronizing.
“How are you two recovering from your… Encounter with the Everflow River?” they eased their weight against their staff, canting towards Muddle, “You appear to be shivering, Muddle; Are you keeping warm enough?”
“I’m fine,” he snapped, digging his claws into his scrawny arms.
“I don’t mean to be intrusive,” Virtue’s voice was even, infuriatingly so, and Muddle felt his frills rattle before he could move to hold them still. Virtue continued, “But considering how– And I promise it is not my intention to be impolite– Delicate Faes are, I would recommend addressing every possible issue to protect your own well-being.”
Muddle’s frills vibrated again and he tried to cover with a sharp, “Is that true,” directed towards where Lyric’s eye had last been.
But, before she could respond, Virtue gave him a curious look and said,
“How would an Imperial know more about a Fae than a Fae?”
Muddle stiffened, his eyes narrowing as Virtue’s own blinked down at him with earnest interest.
“I–”
“You seem also to be confused by the animosity between the Icefields, or rather the Flight native to them, and your own native Flight– Though, I suppose, you might not be from the Ruins. Yes, I suppose that would be rather ignorant of me to assume simply because of your eyes…” Virtue looked past Muddle for a moment, before shaking their head, “It is very strange for a wyrm to be so ignorant about the affairs that might concern them, considering the state of this world, and yet– Are you a wyrie, perhaps? You do look small enough to be one.”
“I’m–!” Muddle bristled sitting upright as his frills flared up and shook, “I’m not a– A– Wyrie– or whatever and I’m not ignorant, I–”
Lyric yawned suddenly, “He doesn’t get any of this, I think. He told me he was originally something called a h u m a n.”
She yawned again and Muddle could hear her shift against the stone.
“Don’t make fun of me,” Muddle hissed, before he could stop himself, “Don’t act like you’re–”
“How did it come into your possession?” Virtue said and Muddle looked over at them, mouth dangling.
“Wha–?”
“Your bracelet, that is. It is,” they extended their head towards Muddle, who pulled back just as quickly, “Remarkably powerful.”
Muddle looked down at The Ring, covering it with his opposite hand,
“I…” he felt his nose wrinkle, his eyes darting in some attempt to hide The Ring’s origins and the Grotto and–
“Why are you still here?” he looked up at Virtue, making sure his contempt was as sharp and scathing as possible, “That’s my question– Since you’re making this into some kind obnoxious exchange for them.”
He pressed his palm to The Ring, heart thundering in his ears.
Virtue’s brow furrowed, their eyes clouding with a film of grey that Muddle barely registered before they looked away– head tipped towards the ceiling as though they could see through it and up into the edges of the sky. Their weight pressed against their staff and Muddle could see their throat rippling, subtly and so silently that he, for a moment, thought he’d imagined it. A grin crept across his face, his frills lifting and vibrating against each other quietly.
“Well?”
Virtue sighed and looked back at him and, for a split second, Muddle thought their eyes looked oily and–
“I told you,” Virtue said slowly, easing off of their staff and stepping towards the hearth, “I am a healer, you are still injured, and I would like to assist you– After all, I would consider it a miracle of some measure that you’ve lasted so long with your wounds.”
Muddle swallowed. Virtue continued, voice still flat and knowing,
“Or that I managed to pull you from the river at all.”
His frills slackened and then began to fold, and Muddle dug The Ring into his palm in the awkward, emptiness that had filled the shack. Virtue had saved him– and Muddle still couldn’t puzzle out why, despite the tangled, paranoid theories that kept budding in the back of his mind.
They want your Ring.
He held it tighter and–
“Alright. Speaking of the river,” Lyric raised her head enough so that Muddle could see her ears were perked, “I was thinking you might know of some other way across it… You seem to know a lot about the Icefield, I mean, so…”
Virtue’s tail flicked at the tufted tip.
“Yes, there are other, less precarious, means to cross it…”
Muddle could see Virtue’s brow crease, their right hand rising to touch the side of their face,
“But first, I…” they blinked and dipped their head ever so slightly as they looked away from Muddle, “I would like you to explain why you wish to cross it and,” they turned back towards Muddle suddenly, pointing with one of their dark claws, “Why you, Muddle, have a series of holding wards attached to you?”
They folded their claws around their staff, looking between Muddle and Lyric expectantly.
“H-holding wards–?” Muddle blurted, remembering the crushing helplessness of Casari’s spell, just as Lyric chimed,
“Muddle can go first, alright.”
He craned his neck in every direction he could, trying to see if any strange, magical markings had somehow been pressed into his skin, but could only see his spots and barely scabbed wounds.
“It’s not a physical thing,” Virtue said, quickly, “But I saw them hovering around you when you were attempting to cross the Everflow– Very stately marks and undeniably from some recognized authority of the Icefield.”
“I–” Muddle said, hunching his shoulders, wishing he didn’t feel so small and twitchy, “It’s–”
“Lopshide protector,” Lyric yawned again, in a loose voice, “He really didn’t like Muddle, I guess. That’s not too much of a surprise, though,” something mischievous darted into her tone.
Muddle felt his frills rattle but Lyric continued,
“Though, he didn’t like me that much either… Not sure why,” she flexed out her wings, clipping the mangled edges of his own so that he let out a yelp and scrambled around the lip of the hearth the opposite end. There he held his shoulders, trying to focus on keeping his frills still.
“Muddle?” said Virtue, “Do you hold any ethical oppositions to wearing another creature’s skin?”
Muddle blinked and looked down at the segmented belly of his new, wriggly body.
“Wh– What?”
Virtue had already begun to move towards the door, “Furs would, I imagine, be a better word… Would you make use of any furs I brought back?”
“I know what you meant!” he snapped, and then added a stunted, hesitant shrug, “Fine. Sure.”
“And you, Lyric?”
“Oh, alright… I mean, yes, I would love something extra warm,” Muddle saw the tip of her antlers bobbing and swaying, “It’s such a shame I didn’t get to ask Rootlickt; their furs were very nice to sleep on.”
The fire flickered as Virtue pulled the door open,
“I will return, then, and please, if you can manage it Lyric, explain to Muddle why… Ah, perhaps, the plight of the Light Flight in this world. It would be a fair exchange, considering that you know he was human and…. also, considering your behavior in the river.”
They disappeared into the snow, closing the door behind them.
Muddle looked over in time to see Lyric’s head was raised, watching the space the dragon had previously been as if they were still there. He lay down and curled his tail towards his nose, shivering as the crisp sounds of the fire settled around him until, suddenly,
“Your bracelet,” Lyric was looking down at him, “It’s not really yours, right?”
Muddle went rigid and then turned away, biting his tongue to keep himself from another revealing outburst. Silence– except for the hearth– again. And then,
“You know, I don’t even know how much you’d understand about all this Flight tension… You’re not even from around here, right? Unless, humans come from Sornieth and I’ve just never heard of them…”
“No,” he said, “I mean yes, I’m not from–” He gritted his teeth, “I don’t care– I just,” Muddle could hear the ragged desperation in his own voice, “Want to go home and not look like– Not be–” he suddenly felt as though the sides of his face had been dipped in oil– his frills were slick and heavy with something he was afraid to touch.
Lyric let out a sigh, “Your eyes are golden, which means other dragons think you were born into the Light Flight, and that means they think you’re… an enemy.”
“I’m not an idiot,” Muddle bristled, almost glad to have a new reason to be angry, “I know pretty much every per– thing here hates me.”
“Alright, yes, I know, you… Um, the Light Flight they– a lot of you, um. They’re the thinking type. Philosophical, very talky… that kind of thing,” she tapped her chin, “But their deity– Oh!”
She swung her head around so that her rectangular face cornered him with his back to the fire,
“You know what a deity is, right?”
Muddle had flinched and swore at himself under his breath, recovering with a guarded, “In the universal sense: yes.”
“So a divine type figure, alright?”
The walls of the shack shifted as a shriek of wind beat against them, and, before he could reiterate his understanding of the concept, Lyric cut him off with,
“Yours… she’s called the Lightweaver. Or, she was called that because… because she got destroyed right after she demanded your– I mean, the Light Flight expand beyond their original borders.”
“Okay,” said Muddle, “And?”
Lyric tipped her nose down, blinking slowly while her left, tufted eyebrow quirked upwards ever-so-slightly,
“You wanted to know, right? So, that’s what happened… the Lightweaver was destroyed and the Light Flight saw it as a sign they should take over everyone else’s territories. There were so many fights over land– not that I fought anyone, I probably wasn’t even alive during the worst of it.”
“That still, decidedly, seems like it has nothing to do with me,” Muddle crossed his arms, watching the door with a sudden fear sitting heavy in his stomach. Virtue’s departure had been so abrupt and awkward, Muddle couldn’t help but suspect the muscular, horned Dragon had–
Suddenly the profile of Lyric’s huge head blocked his vision, her eyes looking quizzically between him and the door.
“If you have that bracelet,” she said, “Why don’t you try to leave? I mean, Virtue’s right about you not trying to save yourself being silly: if they hadn’t found you in time…”
She looked back at the door.
“I–” said Muddle, “It’s none of your–”
He stopped himself before Lyric attempted another insulting imitation of his voice and, instead knitted his spindly fingers together, thinking.
The blemish on The Ring had spread. His attempts to change himself back only encouraged the dark tendrils’ progress from the underside of The Ring to the outer band. And yet he had made the shack–
But I’m still…
Lyric had moved away from the hearth, lumbering towards the door and opening it wide enough to thrust the tip of her muzzle into the cold. Muddle could see the book on her hip and suddenly remembered the image of the grey water and how it looked from the railings of Anagnori Bridge.
“What kind of magic is possible here?” he said, the weight in his belly shifting with a lurch, “In Sorm–”
“Sornieth,” Lyric corrected, waving her claws along to the noise of agitation he made, before she tapped at her chin again, “Huh. I think…”
She turned, her long body coiling over itself as she faced him, one of her claws drifting towards the book on her hip as though it were being guided by the same red twine she had used to tie it to herself.
“I think…” she repeated, and then shivered, quickly pulling her hand away and kneading at the flooring, “That all depends on who or what you are.”
A smile. Muddle’s frills rattled softly as he scowled back.
“That’s not an answer– Just some vague, idiotic excuse for one.”
Lyric’s smile faltered and then, as her claws curled into the floor, widened again,
“Oh, I guess. Maybe for a human, or whatever, who doesn’t know where or what he is,” she reached up suddenly and Muddle flinched before he realized she had only moved to scratch the underside of her jaw, “But it makes sense to me, alright, and it would make sense to wyrms like Rootlickt and Casari and Sta–”
She let out a small puff of air that almost sounded like a forced laugh and then gave her head a small, playful toss.
“You know your– oh, I mean, the Light Flight’s founding lands were supposedly home to the tallest trees outside of The Labyrinth and this thin, shimmering grass that grew gold all year round. And, they say, if the wind caught in it just right, it sounded like… like someone you knew was coming alongside you, humming.”
Her voice felt as though it were building towards something, almost as she were about to open up the back of her throat and sing, and Muddle leaned towards it without realising. He could see the coastline– see the oaks thinning into the rosey marbled bark of the pines and the ancient, stately cypress trees that looked both dead and alive at the same time– His palms pressed to the window of a the Thunderbird, his hot, little breath fogging up the glass as the vineyards of Napa faded into a terrible memory–
“I would have liked to see it, you know,” her voice fell, jolting Muddle back into the present.
Clutching at The Ring, he tipped up his nose with sneer,
“Then go. Obviously, you don’t have any responsibilities, friends, or family to stop you from–”
Lyric laughed again, slightering back towards the hearth and curling herself around it,
“Oh, no. You don’t understand, and I don’t get why Virtue thinks you can… Because I don’t really think you ever will.”
A yawn. Muddle grabbed his frills before they could react, muttering,
“They’re obviously just going to turn me in.”
The tuft of her tail rose and then thumped against the ground as she said,
“You said it, not me,” another thump, “Maybe you can actually do something this time and stop them if they do?”
“Do something?! I made this fu–!” Muddle’s frills flared, his body tensing before he paused, swallowed, and then grunted, “Whatever. Just don’t pretend you’re somehow useful or intelligent just because you’ve lived here longer.”
“Here?” Lyric’s voice was fading again, “No, no, I come from the Plateau– I haven’t been in the Icefields much longer than you, probably.”
A beat. Outside the shack, Muddle could hear something snuffling around in the snow.
“D-d-do creatures h-here– D-d-does anything eat the thing that I am?” he said, before he could stop himself.
But Lyric was either asleep or ignoring him, and Muddle extended his neck towards the sound, listening and desperately wishing he knew what to do.
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