Nerubi

Nerubi's youth was a bloodbath, an immoderate, unbridled feast of violence and slaughter. A frantic, uninterrupted carnage that brought Nerubi deep in the lands of hysterical madness - however, the bloodstained path ae've been religiously following as a butchering warrior for so long suddenly stopped due to unforssen event independant from aer will. Forced to stop and stay alone with aer heartbeats for only sound, Nerubi was left to reflex on aer own thoughts finally freed from the massacre adrenaline, and discovered a barren land of nothingness, where the self revealed to be an empty shell usually filled with merely echoes of screams that weren't even aer own. Dipping even further in introspection, ae ventured in unsure parts of the mind and magic mixed, places that were real in every way but shirked when ae tried to reach them, and others that were constructs to hide a truth that didn't look the same when looked at from another angle. During this distraught travel to self, Nerubi build a safe place, eerie and phantasmagoric, a splendid and uncanny world of aer own, within aer own soul - but when one is connected to the magic fluxes, inside and outside tend to merge, and Nerubi's boudnaries were already dangerously blurry. But digging too deep unveils threats that must have been left to sleep, and something inside the several layers of self and reality Nerubi traveled revealed itself, and began to hunt relentlessly, seeking for soul and mind bit for food. One can not escape the consequences of a curse they willingly embraced, even if ae were a whole other person then. However, one can build an illusory realm within oneself so complex the sentient fluxes threatening to take aer mind an memory away would wander endlessly deep within it, forever trapped in unreacheable layer of a magic plane's reality.

Stepping outside this years-long transe, Nerubi grasped for air as if it was the first time ae really breathed, and without skipping a heartbeat, leaped back in the uninterrupted frantic rythm of life ae had before. But this time, there was no carnage : there was a search of fulfillment throught art and deep connexion with another, as that would nurture and expand their inner world. The vibrance and the fullness were not the same, and one was may more highly desirable than the other.
Who ae were previously had stop being, and even aer body changed accordingly. Ae didn't even took time to acknowledge this : it feels only natural. What was before their Charge stopped mattering, and the memory of what appealed to aer then faded. Nerubi began to search for as many cultural and art food for mind and soul ae could find with reckless abandon, and finally, it took the shape of aer trip as a traveling dancer.
On their road, ae found Luben, as the epitome of the sister mind ae were looking for ; broken as ae was, like-minded and eager to be healed in the connexion with another.

From magic fluxes perspective, Nerubi seems in a permantent state of being destructed from inside and permanently regenerating aerself. Ae, however, seem fine with it, and ae're not seeking the help of the numerous highly-specialized mages and healers in the clan.
Ae, however, agreed to stayed in the clan as its numerous artists and magic users sparked new inspirations in aer, to the delight of several mages of the College willing to learn more about the singularity of aer magic state.



Agender (ae/aer), pansexual. Who even needs gender, anyways ?




Partner, both in dance, heart and physical intimacy: Luben

Nerubi and Luben are traveling dancers, offering a stunning show of dance and magic. It is, however, barely a pale expression of their magnificent, sensual shared inner world, a construction of magic and mind were Nerubi brought aer partner to attune xem with aer. The bond they share is absolute, voluptuous, passionate and somewhat unsettling for others. From the outside, it seems that Nerubi is slightly insane dominant lover, lascivious and ardent, eager make aer partner blossom by teaching xem; the truth is Nerubi is way more fragile than Luben, and aer intimacy involves much more reassuring and caring than one could expect from aer : it just happens in a place where no one else can see aer.








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