Neup

"Well, that isn't the kind of thing you usually focus on when someone hurts you that badly, whether you've been scarred beyond repair or not. I'd like to think I haven't, but..." Neup realised her voice was getting softer and softer as she went on, and tried to speak up as she continued. "I don't think there's any denying that something's beyond repair."

She didn't want to continue; this wasn't something she liked to talk about, and she felt it wasn't even her place considering what happened as "scarring", not while she was looking at the blemished dragon in front of her. How could she say something so... so minuscule scarred her beyond repair, when there were dragons present who actually were scarred. She didn't want to offend anyone.

"I... I loved this dragon once," Neup had to force the past tense out of her mouth; she was still working on convincing herself that she no longer held that love anymore, but she was never the best at lying to herself. "We were best friends, you see. Ever since we were hatchlings, we spent every moment together. I don't know when exactly my feelings grew from friendship into love, but hers seemingly grew with mine. We slowly moved into territory that wasn't exactly... Acceptable for normal friendship."

Neup couldn't believe she was admitting these things in front of a crowd of strangers, and she couldn't make herself continue on for much longer.

"Anyway... I was in love with her, she said she was in love with me, and I was happier than I'd ever been, or I'll ever be. A year or two ago, though... One day she just cut off all communication with me. She said she didn't feel the way she used to, that we weren't on the same page anymore. She left me wondering what I did wrong... What is it that makes me impossible to love? She left me with so many questions, so many memories that I can't look back at anymore without feeling all those emotions over again, and with love that I only know how to give to her. I grew up loving her, and it just doesn't feel... right trying to love anyone else."

With tears making her vision waver slightly, Neup cleared her throat again and forced a small smile to appear on her face. She already seemed pathetic enough to these dragons; she didn't need to add to that image by crying in the middle of the crowded area.