Ghost

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It was cold as I walked, the frigid December wind ripping at my too-thin jacket as bitter as those that loved me if they only knew what had been running through my mind.

I was supposed to be special.

Supposed to be perfect.

I was neither.

Tonight was it. I would change everything, I would go back and undo the past, eliminate the pain I had caused. I was afraid though. Who doesn't fear death? Who wouldn't fear the thought of never even existing in the first place?

I stopped and shivered, but I barely felt the cold anymore. I just want to see everyone one last time, hold my lover in my arms and whisper my devotion into her ear...But I had said my goodbyes already. They would never know that it was the last time they'd see me, hold me...kiss me. They would never know me at all.

This was it.

I would erase myself forever for the sake of many people.

...goodbye...

I love you.