CodyCheshireCat's Clan

Hello, I'm Cody! Take a look around, enjoy yourself.





I take my first step
into the alluring promise of
the unknown
as it calls.
The great call of
adventure
and glory
and existence beyond.

It is everything I ever wanted
yet nothing of the sort.
I break.
Reform.
I am jagged pieces fused.
An amalgamation.
A painful thing.
I am not who I was
when I began,
that cavernous, aching creature that
begged for adventure and distraction
and dreamed.
It is not what I thought I wanted
but a deepest yearned necessity.

I return as if nothing has come to pass.
The world revolves,
that continuous dull drag of life.
Advancing along its singular, familiar path,
and I find that I no longer fit into the space I left behind.
I chase my old existence regardless,
no other option given
beyond stop, cease, end.
Would it have been better if
the world had changed as well?
Given me justification to exist in the world
as the different person that I am?
Or would a world like that be just as unpleasant,
and I would crave what I had before
now I was changed,
but it would be gone
forever
like the person I used to be.

I am a fragment astray
clinging to a puzzle suddenly ill-fitting
after so long of a perfect match,
the refashioned sculpture
of the past and present and future.
I cannot say I wish I had never
headed the call
for I know not who I would be
without it.
So I settle in
At experience’s end.