I met my SO a few months ago and we both really cared about one another from the start. We're very compatible and we're both hopeful for our future together. He left in the beginning of this week to start basic training and he'll be gone for the next four months. I feel off since he left and I'm curious to know if i'll feel worse with time or better. It's not an extremely long time but it's still tough and every day i want him to be back here with me.
He told me he'd be calling his parents when he's allowed to use his phone for a few moments and to check in to see how he was before we can communicate again but he called me and i didn't have my phone close by because I wasn't expecting it so i missed him. Since then I've been having trouble looking at pictures of him because i feel like a butt. i don't want him to think i purposely ignored his calls but there's no way to contact him yet. I want so badly just to be able to talk to him and hear how he's doing. i 'm sure he's fine but not really knowing definitively is eating at me. i just don't know what to do with what i feel. The next four months are going to be tough and i'm not sure how i'm going to deal with it.
He told me he'd be calling his parents when he's allowed to use his phone for a few moments and to check in to see how he was before we can communicate again but he called me and i didn't have my phone close by because I wasn't expecting it so i missed him. Since then I've been having trouble looking at pictures of him because i feel like a butt. i don't want him to think i purposely ignored his calls but there's no way to contact him yet. I want so badly just to be able to talk to him and hear how he's doing. i 'm sure he's fine but not really knowing definitively is eating at me. i just don't know what to do with what i feel. The next four months are going to be tough and i'm not sure how i'm going to deal with it.