@lessthan3
It was a simple harp. Intricate only when my hands passed over it, feeling the carvings that ancestor upon ancestor had whitled away into it, each one more complex than the last. Each one only deep enough that one had to know what they were feeling for to find them. There were days that I spent just running my hands over it again and again in a ritual to calm myself down from all of the bullies that killed time by taunting me.
Today, I looked for a specific one, a marking that tugged at my finger and my heart.
My brother, my twin, my protector and owner of the harp before had spent weeks picking out the perfect pattern to add to the canvas of the harp. I remembered the cheer in his voice as he picked out the knife he would use and where on the instrument he would carve, the two of us sitting in silence as he worked and I studied, comfort in each other wrapping around us like a blanket.
I couldn't remember a time that he wasn't with me, slinging an arm over my shoulder in a grounding weight. Praising my intelligence, throwing himself at the boys that would attack me- for my looks and my brain.
But now he was gone.
The wood pressed into my palms as I couldn't help but curl into it, the strings catching the fading light of the sun. The sun bled into the sky, a brilliant gold like his eyes had been after the ceremony, like mine would be soon. And yet, as salty tear wound down my face like the snakes of grief writhing in my stomach, I found myself with a choice.
I could honor his choice, I could take up the mantle he left behind, stand guard of those he loved (he loved me) and channel the magic of the harp.
Or-
I could break it. I could bring him back, I could hear his laughter once more, feel his arm over my shoulder, could watch his silver tongue work. All at the low cost of destroying everything he had worked for.
I took a deep breath, and-
Music rippled across the courtyard, clear and strong. My heart broke.
It was a simple harp. Intricate only when my hands passed over it, feeling the carvings that ancestor upon ancestor had whitled away into it, each one more complex than the last. Each one only deep enough that one had to know what they were feeling for to find them. There were days that I spent just running my hands over it again and again in a ritual to calm myself down from all of the bullies that killed time by taunting me.
Today, I looked for a specific one, a marking that tugged at my finger and my heart.
My brother, my twin, my protector and owner of the harp before had spent weeks picking out the perfect pattern to add to the canvas of the harp. I remembered the cheer in his voice as he picked out the knife he would use and where on the instrument he would carve, the two of us sitting in silence as he worked and I studied, comfort in each other wrapping around us like a blanket.
I couldn't remember a time that he wasn't with me, slinging an arm over my shoulder in a grounding weight. Praising my intelligence, throwing himself at the boys that would attack me- for my looks and my brain.
But now he was gone.
The wood pressed into my palms as I couldn't help but curl into it, the strings catching the fading light of the sun. The sun bled into the sky, a brilliant gold like his eyes had been after the ceremony, like mine would be soon. And yet, as salty tear wound down my face like the snakes of grief writhing in my stomach, I found myself with a choice.
I could honor his choice, I could take up the mantle he left behind, stand guard of those he loved (he loved me) and channel the magic of the harp.
Or-
I could break it. I could bring him back, I could hear his laughter once more, feel his arm over my shoulder, could watch his silver tongue work. All at the low cost of destroying everything he had worked for.
I took a deep breath, and-
Music rippled across the courtyard, clear and strong. My heart broke.