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Echo

(#90446989)

Level 1 Imperial

Energy: 50/50

Personal Style

Apparel

Skin

Scene

Physical Attributes

Battle Stats

Measurements

Length

18.98 m

Wingspan

24.45 m

Weight

7509.89 kg

Genetics

Obsidian
Basic

White
Firefly

Hatchday

Nov 11, 2023
(6 months)

Breed

Adult
Imperial

Eye Type

Ice
Common

Level 1 Imperial

EXP: 0 / 245

STR

AGI

DEF

QCK

INT

VIT

MND

Lineage

Parents

Void
Silence

Offspring

none

Biography

E C H O
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"Sometime silence hides the loudest screams for help..."
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Perhaps you should leave while you still can, as in those parts nothing good happens. You'll hear the laments of many souls, the cries for help of broken things that wish for others to just listen. Will you listen to them? Please, don't lie. It'll break them even more...

Unless that is what you wish for? To listen to the wailing of broken hearts? My, how cruel... But I suppose you might as well find enjoyment where you can. I won't judge if you do; after all, I'm simply just a herald. There's nothing I can do to stop you from wandering in this place.

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I feel so alone, all the time. I hate it.
I want people to pay attention to me. Not a lot, just a bit. Just enough for me to know I exist. Enough to be sure that they somewhat care about me.
But I don't get that attention, so I guess I don't matter in their eyes.
Maybe it'd be better if I just gave up. I should be used to the loneliness by now... But I guess I still have hope. Hope that, one day, I'll find people that see me.
What can I do to make it stop? It hurts to have people around you and yet feeling so lonely…

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I hate myself. I hate myself so f-cking much. I can't do anything right, I always f-ck things up, no matter what I do. No matter how hard I try, it's never enough. It's always my fault. It's always me. I'm the problem. I'm the f-cked up one that hurts others.
They hurt me too. They hurt me, but never apologized. I'm always the one apologizing, otherwise they don't. They pretend nothing has happened; they forget it even happened. I can't forget. I don't want to forget. I'm always reminded of my past failures, and I hate it. I hate them. I hate myself.
There are days I want to die. Then I think of the people I know, how they will react. I pretend like they'll be hurt, like they'll care. I know they wouldn't. They would still say it was my fault for being weak, for being a failure. I never do enough. I can't do enough, I don't know how. I'm so tired. Living is tiring. Dying feels like a dream, an unreachable one. Part of me has stopped caring. I'll die when I die, and that'll be it. I'll leave no legacy, and I'll die alone.

Loneliness is a b-tch. Even more so when you're surrounded by people, and yet you can't speak to them. And when you do, you feel bad.
It hurts to not trust them. I just want a bit of love. Is it too much to ask? Apparently it is... If you asked me who loved me, I wouldn't be able to give a straight answer. And I understand why nobody would love me. I don't even love myself. There's nothing to love. I'm just a broken doll, waiting for someone to pick me up and give me a purpose. But I'm an ugly doll, so of course nobody wants me. They often don't look.
And when I cry, when I force them to realize I'm here and I exist, all I see is disgust and disdain. They spit at me and go on their merry way without a second though. They leave me more hurt than I was before. And it hurts.
What hurts even more is that as soon as I see them again, I still have the hope they'll finally pick me up and save me...

Am I such a crybaby that anything that doesn't please me makes me cry? Should I worry that crying is my solution to many problems? Isolating myself, cutting all conversations, just to find a safe place where I can hide and cry? I can't cry in front of people; it's too hard, they'll judge me and mock me and make me feel like a worm. But maybe they're right; after all, worms are spineless, and so I am. They're weak and pathetic, preys for birds and rodents - maybe I'm prey too.
I cower in a corner like a scared creature, waiting for the tears to disappear on their own, for my breathing to even out and my heart to stop beating so frantically. Sometimes I'll breathe so hard it hurts, and I can't feel my head due to the abundance of oxygen. I have to drink, and drink, and drink. I drown my sorrow in water, because I'm too much of a coward to try drinking some other beverages - too scared I'll become an addict. But maybe it's not so bad, after all... I might be a spineless creature, but at least I won't be an alcoholic...!
Is that what it's like, to see the glass half full? Things could be worse, sure... They could also be so much better. Will they become better someday? Are wimpy vermins allowed some happiness once in a while? I've read stuff like that, where the main character -someone that suffers and suffers and suffers- ends up with a happy ending, with friends and family and sometimes a lover that supports them. Will I ever get that too? Could my life story be tagged angst with a happy ending? Part of me hopes that will be the case, some day... For now, I can just write my fantasies, hoping they'll become true.

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