Um, there are a lot but I can't think of everything right now;
- I often get up to pace around the apartment when I get something interesting to think about, sometimes I don't realize it until I'm already in the kitchen, it just happens, it did before I started typing this and it was difficult to force myself to get back here so I can actually type my thoughts down instead of just thinking everything over in my head and then not later feeling like replying anything because in my head it feels as if I'd already done so (by having imagined to)
- I pace a lot in general, like if I'm waiting at a bus stop
- My facial expressions are ridiculous, I look at videos of myself and I look so weird with all these fast changing ridiculous-looking expressions
- Also found from videos of myself that I pretty much always look like I'm smiling when I'm speaking? And barely move my lips
- This one's no fun, if someone tells me bad news, for some reason I involuntarily smile? I absolutely do NOT feel any kind of positive emotion about it but my face just twists into a smile and it is no fun at all
- Also if I feel awkward/uncomfortable/anxious I may involuntarily smile and it's awful
- I twirl my hair around my fingers in a specific way, I make this loop (that is firm but easy to disassemble just by pulling it back) and stroke it repeatedly, it depends but usually it has a really nice texture
- I like to narrow my eyes & move my head slightly to play with the rays of light from lamps when it's dark
- I like to tear at my fingernails with my other hand's fingernails
- I sometimes click my teeth together in time with music or just otherwise too
- I generally fidget a lot, too many individual things of this category to bother listing
- I'm not too good at talking. I keep forgetting words somehow, and just not managing to get the words out (so there's typically a lot of pauses I hate it), and most of the time I can't get the words in the right order, repeat words, I can't think in words while I'm speaking/trying to speak/listening AND paying attention to speech (so I really don't understand it if someone would expect a person to be able to speak in a way that is grammatically correct, I think I may have heard that is a thing some people do??) sometimes I keep having to restart a sentence from the beginning
- How I use English is shaped a lot by how I see other people use it, I catch on new sayings and such really fast and I kind of hate it. Around a month ago seemingly out of nowhere my mind suddenly started excessively using curses derived from Jesus' name and it annoyed me so much but it kept happening and happening, thankfully it seems to have toned down some by now
- I'm very absent-minded and somewhat clumsy so because of this I often spill drinks, accidentally brush off objects to the floor from surfaces, send pieces of food flying when trying to cut a steak, stuff like that...sorry
- I slap my forehead if I'm really frustrated or excited
- I look at the ground most of the time when walking outside because I'm afraid of looking at people and them possibly noticing that I did and possibly thinking that I'd been staring at them, it's uncomfortable just looking in the direction of a stranger for a fraction of a second
- If I'm excited about something with my brother, I'm probably going to be talking very loud and not noticing, and if it's really late then and I shouldn't he might tell me to be more quiet, so I try, but shortly after he tells me again to because somehow I can't keep track of it and had gotten loud again
- Back when I used to sing/perform I would find myself involuntarily moving my hand to the back of my neck whenever I made a mistake
- I often argue with myself in my mind over the tiniest things and it's a quite annoying, if I get some sudden really stupid/untrue/etc thought in my mind I have to argue against it, I suppose as a kind of 'proof' that it's not really what I think (and hope it doesn't reply anything more) even though it was produced by my mind but how do I even tell if something's an intrusive thought or not and then it might go down the meta cycle of was that my actual opinion but it's so ridiculous I would have so many contradictory opinions over so many things if they all were my opinions?
- My laugh seems to be different every time
- I have many sorts of consonant noises for 'annoyance', 'amusement', etc. I sometimes try to emulate those in text but idk if anyone gets what I mean with those.
I do that, too!
- I often get up to pace around the apartment when I get something interesting to think about, sometimes I don't realize it until I'm already in the kitchen, it just happens, it did before I started typing this and it was difficult to force myself to get back here so I can actually type my thoughts down instead of just thinking everything over in my head and then not later feeling like replying anything because in my head it feels as if I'd already done so (by having imagined to)
- I pace a lot in general, like if I'm waiting at a bus stop
- My facial expressions are ridiculous, I look at videos of myself and I look so weird with all these fast changing ridiculous-looking expressions
- Also found from videos of myself that I pretty much always look like I'm smiling when I'm speaking? And barely move my lips
- This one's no fun, if someone tells me bad news, for some reason I involuntarily smile? I absolutely do NOT feel any kind of positive emotion about it but my face just twists into a smile and it is no fun at all
- Also if I feel awkward/uncomfortable/anxious I may involuntarily smile and it's awful
- I twirl my hair around my fingers in a specific way, I make this loop (that is firm but easy to disassemble just by pulling it back) and stroke it repeatedly, it depends but usually it has a really nice texture
- I like to narrow my eyes & move my head slightly to play with the rays of light from lamps when it's dark
- I like to tear at my fingernails with my other hand's fingernails
- I sometimes click my teeth together in time with music or just otherwise too
- I generally fidget a lot, too many individual things of this category to bother listing
- I'm not too good at talking. I keep forgetting words somehow, and just not managing to get the words out (so there's typically a lot of pauses I hate it), and most of the time I can't get the words in the right order, repeat words, I can't think in words while I'm speaking/trying to speak/listening AND paying attention to speech (so I really don't understand it if someone would expect a person to be able to speak in a way that is grammatically correct, I think I may have heard that is a thing some people do??) sometimes I keep having to restart a sentence from the beginning
- How I use English is shaped a lot by how I see other people use it, I catch on new sayings and such really fast and I kind of hate it. Around a month ago seemingly out of nowhere my mind suddenly started excessively using curses derived from Jesus' name and it annoyed me so much but it kept happening and happening, thankfully it seems to have toned down some by now
- I'm very absent-minded and somewhat clumsy so because of this I often spill drinks, accidentally brush off objects to the floor from surfaces, send pieces of food flying when trying to cut a steak, stuff like that...sorry
- I slap my forehead if I'm really frustrated or excited
- I look at the ground most of the time when walking outside because I'm afraid of looking at people and them possibly noticing that I did and possibly thinking that I'd been staring at them, it's uncomfortable just looking in the direction of a stranger for a fraction of a second
- If I'm excited about something with my brother, I'm probably going to be talking very loud and not noticing, and if it's really late then and I shouldn't he might tell me to be more quiet, so I try, but shortly after he tells me again to because somehow I can't keep track of it and had gotten loud again
- Back when I used to sing/perform I would find myself involuntarily moving my hand to the back of my neck whenever I made a mistake
- I often argue with myself in my mind over the tiniest things and it's a quite annoying, if I get some sudden really stupid/untrue/etc thought in my mind I have to argue against it, I suppose as a kind of 'proof' that it's not really what I think (and hope it doesn't reply anything more) even though it was produced by my mind but how do I even tell if something's an intrusive thought or not and then it might go down the meta cycle of was that my actual opinion but it's so ridiculous I would have so many contradictory opinions over so many things if they all were my opinions?
- My laugh seems to be different every time
- I have many sorts of consonant noises for 'annoyance', 'amusement', etc. I sometimes try to emulate those in text but idk if anyone gets what I mean with those.
Yamlicious wrote on 2014-06-16 22:52:09:
Whenever I cant find something in the kitchen like a measuring spoon or spice, I start walking around in tiny circles..