Shadow
Written By @
Jayflying
You were anticipating happiness.
It was your first clutch, you and your beautiful mate, and you were so proud.
Five perfect little eggs, pulsing with light, casting the shadows of their siblings in a never-ending dance of light and dark.
They thrummed with a kind of barely audible life.
Sleeping next to them, you could almost hear the pulses of the little lives held within...
It was supposed to be perfect.
It was supposed to be perfect.
You sensed the change immediately; a little of the warmth fading from the air, a little sound quieting, a little light going dark.
A little life lost.
What did you do wrong?
The egg wasn't sickly.
Or was it?
Oh, gods, what if this was your fault?
What if you had missed something, if you could have stopped this?
You and your mate both mourn over the withered husk of the egg, crying for the child you would never see.
You vowed to never let this happen again.
You had vowed to never let this happen again.
It was a pain like you had never felt before.
Another life lost.
You had failed.
Failed as a parent-- and as a mate.
You should have never agreed to watch the eggs again after what happened under your protection.
"Protection", what a joke.
You couldn't protect anything, could you?
Suddenly the shadows around you, once your home, just became reminders of the blackness of your grief.
Was fate taunting you?
Was fate taunting you?
The pain of another egg lost barely registered through the numbness of your grief.
You had stayed up almost all night watching the eggs, and yet you had succumbed to your tiredness.
And another egg had succumbed to whatever was tearing your unborn children away from you.
This
couldn't be your own fault, could it?
There had to be
something else responsible for this.
Couldn't you even save one?
Were you cursed?
Doomed to watch your little family stolen from you one by one?
Your mate was already beginning to ask if they could watch the eggs on your behalf, mistrust behind the words.
You swore that you would save at least one, no matter the cost.
You swore that you would save at least one, no matter the cost.
Even if that cost was the life of it's only surviving sibling.
You knew what you would come back to in the morning, and yet the image of your sleeping mate, blissfully unaware of what would be the
fourth dead egg, tore your heart in two.
They seemed even more heartbroken over their own failure than they had been about yours, and you understood why.
They couldn't just blame it on you anymore.
When night fell again you stood watch over your last surviving egg.
You knew that the egg was due to hatch the next morning, and you refused to let it die without ever having lived.
You looked around warily, every shadow no longer a place of safety to you but a hiding place for danger.
But you refused to let your guard down, refused to sleep or hunt or leave your egg for even a moment.
It was a few hours before dawn when you saw it.
Something moving in the dark-- or was it the dark that was moving?
The shadows you had once considered safety coalesced into claws, fangs, reaching and seeking,
hungering.
You had heard stories of this creature throughout your life but had only ever spoken the word "Shade" as a curseword.
And a curse it truly was, the curse that had been haunting your nest this whole time, stealing away the things most important to you.
No more.
It snaked it's way across the ground, poking smoky tendrils over the edge of your nest inquisitively. Though it had no eyes, you could sense it eyeing the last remaining egg, desiring nothing more than to destroy the little life that had formed inside over the last few days.
You snapped at it, tearing at the darkness and forcing it to recoil.
Grief ignited into rage.
This awful thing would not touch your child.
Every time it made a move toward the nest, you fought it back, but it was returning your blows. Dark tendrils became claws, tearing at your eyes, your wings, your neck.
The fight seemed never-ending.
You knew you were stalling, hoping what little dawn light crept into the Tangled Wood would be enough to drive it away.
Thankfully, your intuition had been correct.
The beast fled at first light, hours after it had first arrived.
You were alone, your emotional pain drowned out by the physical pain the creature had caused.
You still stood, but it was shaky. You shivered, despite the warm blood flowing down to meet the ground where you stood.
Inevitably, your balance gave out, and you hit the ground.
Instinct made you curl around the one egg you still had left.
One perfect little egg, pulsing with light, casting the shadows of your face in a never-ending dance of light and dark.
Light and dark, dancing in your vision.
First light, then dark. Then light, then a longer period of dark.
The darkness dragged on longer and longer every time it filled your eyes.
Lying next to your precious egg, you could still hear the pulse of the little life held within...
You were anticipating happiness.