"Where the night ends..." Darryn closes her eyes and takes in a deep breath before she continues to speak, "Well I think I've got a story for that... I just, nevermind."
It was my first time visiting the portal, the forbidden portal, I'd done a pretty good amount of journeying. By then I'd travelled across Sornieth and seen all 11 domains but the portal, it sure is built different. My first encounter with a Terror Toad... well let's just say it wasn't very pretty.
Ended up having to go back to my home clan for a extended period of time, usually I only stay at my home clan for a week or less, but to properly heal I had to stay for a lot longer.
During this stay I began to notice how much changed, the clan was so much bigger, my mom left the clan to serve the Lightweaver, and if that wasn't enough, one of my friends got married, he has like, six kids today! It felt like way too much was happening way to fast, it really put into perspective how much time had passed.
Well my time at my home clan was... very jarring, and before I knew it, I'd just about made a full recovery and I was ready to head out again... But something about this stay was different from all of the other times I've stayed at my home clan after a trip. I knew something had to change.
It was the last day I of my stay, I'd just about packed allof my things and was ready to leave the next morning. But no matter how hard I tried to sleep, I just couldn't.
I found myself wandering around the outskirts of the clan, and then I saw her, Crius. Well, I guess I'll have to introduce her now, well
Crius..
she's a Skydancer, we grew up together, and well I... she meant a lot to me. While I absolutely loved adventure, she adored the simple calmer life, heh our first- one time when we hung out I decided to take her to a small creek by the forest nearby, it went disastrously, but I'll never forget it.
Anyways, back to that night. There she was, sitting in the moonlight, gazing out into the endless sea of stars, I called out to her, "Hey, Crius!" she whipped her head and looked over at me, "Darryn! Aren't you leaving tomorrow? You should get some rest!" I walked over to her and sat down next to her, "Well, I couldn't sleep. I thought some fresh air might help, and well, I happened to stumble into you, but what are
you doing this late up?"
She chuckled, "I guess I'm doing the same as you, couldn't fall asleep, came out to get some fresh air." I looked at her, and swallowed, why was this so hard to say? "Crius... during my time at the clan, it's just felt like so much has happened while I was gone... it feels harder to call this place my home everyday..."
Crius looked at me, opened her mouth, paused, and then began to speak, "Well, you're always out, going on your travels, it's bound for you to miss a lot." I looked at Crius, I really wanted to speak from my heart, "I mean, I get it, but... this, right here doesn't feel like home... it's not where I feel like myself, I guess."
Crius moved a claw, she reached out and held one of my claws, "Well, I know you, your heart's always longing for adventure, being out there. If you were couped up in one place for too long you'd probably go insane." I laughed, she was right. My heart however, was racing, "And you love your peaceful life here. Well, what I'm trying to get at here is well, I think... I've been thinking that my home may be somewhere out there." I gestured to the horizon.
Crius had a cold empty look, "Oh." That was about all I needed to hear, "I... I-" she cut me off "Darryn I know, and I love you too. But you know me, venturing out there isn't my thing. But don't let me hold you away from your dreams." Crius leaned against me "I want to stay here, with you, but my heart longs to be out there... I just..."
"And that's okay, I'm not mad at you. In fact, I have a feeling we feel the same way, I want to be with you, but I don't want to leave this life that I have here behind." I held her tight, "I just, I don't know what to do." She gave me a reassuring squeeze, "Whatever you do, just remember, I'll always love you, okay?"
"And I love you too, no matter what."
We spent the whole night outside together, watching the stars go by. And before I knew it, the Sun was already chasing the night away, we got up, she helped me gather up my things. And I left.
There's tears running down Darryn's face, "... Well, there's that. We still write to eachother. I just... wish things could be different, I often think about my past. But surrounding yourself in it too much will only hurt you; we just have to live on."
(it feels like my fingers are about to fall off, there's probably 20 grammar errors and it's probably poorly written too, but oh well.)