General Discussion

-comes in shly-
i have aspergers. also adhd and some other things.
I was diagnosed when i was 5 years or 6 years old.
I am currently 21 now
-hides again- im a shy person sometimes o.O

(I'm going to tell a lot about myself here, so people who might want to talk to me will know what they're dealing with.)

Diagnosed with Autism, PDD-NOS (Pervasive developmental disorder not otherwise specified)
Some criteria for the disorder are less for me, while other are more severe. I am a slightly socially awkward person and I tend to retreat and stay in a safe quiet place when I fail at something/feel threatened, even if that something is not a big deal or a threat, i'm quite shy. I also make a lot of different animal noises, from snake hisses to Ostrich sounds.

I'm good at learning languages, I am Dutch and live in my homeland, but absolutely love learning English. I love speaking it and in my opinion i'm okay at writing it for a 14Yr old ^^.

At times, I feel like I am a totally normal person, but at other times I feel like I carry a curse in my genes. I love babies and young children (I get along especially well with younger boys, don't know why) and get along well with most animals. I am not girly but i still wear slightly feminine clothes because the popular girls at school like to make fun of the ones that don't follow fashion. (i was bullied a lot in primary school, that has scarred me for life)

I go to a special school that is for aspies and Autistic children of age 12 to 17, and I feel okay here. I would not have made it in a normal highschool, I would've felt out of place and lonely, but it's on this school that I've met all my current irl friends.

I suffer from sudden outburst of tears when I think back at my past or recent scarring events.

@Finnley Yay, i'm not alone ;_; I hiss at people when i'm angry, just like a snake I use it as a warning. I can't hold myself back from making noises every once in a while, even when i'm supposed to talk like a normal human >_>.

*waves* My psychiatrist wants to "hold back" on diagnosing me as on the autistic spectrum, because I have "other mental disorders that could be the cause of the symptoms I identify with." (or something much better paraphrased, you know. ;)) (Social anxiety, long term depressive w/ anxious distress, ADD, other crap), but my mom and I are both positive that I have Asperger's. So.

I'm fairly high-functioning. When I was a kid, I was pretty good at dealing with life and putting on a fake face, and it's pretty much become my default setting to put one foot in front of the other. My depression has been acting up lately, which is just marvelous, by which I mean I hate it and myself. :/ But compared to a lot of aspies, I'm blessed--I have a supportive family, we're moving forward with meds for depression which is helping me stabilize, my teachers and doctors are all understanding...

I'm also freakishly smart, by which I mean no offense to anyone who feels un-smart. I hate it, actually. I don't think it's related to the Asperger's--it's just my IQ. It's hard, though, because my mind moves so much faster than everyone's around me, which makes me feel more out of place.

Thanks for letting me vent! ;)

@Akky3210, that's why mine won't diagnose either, also due to the fact that I'm 16, which is around 10 years older than they would normally want to diagnose at, apparently. According to them I would have aspergers, due to a lot of the symptoms being present but being quite high functioning.

@Brecheese Yeah, I almost wish I had a diagnosis, just so I could hold that knowledge in m hands. But then, I'm a fairly label-centric person, for good or ill.

@Akky3210, I feel that sometimes it would be very useful, particularly when I have to ask people to explain an expression or how they are feeling so that I can try and react appropriately, because then maybe they would understand why I have to do that, as opposed to occasionally getting angry with me or just laughing.

@Brecheese Ugh, the laughing is the worst. I empathize. :/