Ansrbrar

Am I here?.....
Am I seeing clearly?.....
Am I what I wanted to be?.....
Am I really thinking, feeling, or touching?
Am I truly alive at all?......

....why....oh why.... I think I like I like it here.... I dunno if that is true. I don't.... all I know is what the alchemist Firlia have told me. I would not even be alive if it was not for the runes carved on it my body. They keep my heart beating, my lungs breathing,... my everything going. Though I can not recall much past the day I woke up here in the clan. What I can remember is much pain... many eyes... lighting and rain. I can still feel the sadness in the eyes looking at me... though past that I know nothing. I am having to try everything over again to see who I am. Though with what my body has been threw I don't know even if I find out things I like, I am good at doing, or even familiar to me... Still might not be me. My body has changed so I have changed... Will I never know who I was?....
I thought the worse was behind me but I was wrong.. one day I just fell unable to breath. Some of runes were fading! Luckily I was neath the clan of Firlia. Though she was not home. Her mate Nuthas was and was able to keep me living till she came back. They worked day and night till they were able to fix an adjust what went wrong. I know I want to live now.. but I can not go far from this clan. They are the only ones .... for now I know that can keep my runes a glow..