The owls' midnight eyes
burned.
Aureole perched lightly on the branch, her thoughts weighing heavily on her mind. All the other gods had left her, a child goddess in an old world, its sole guardian and caretaker. Why? It did not matter. She had been too young to remember them - had only known this as she came into her own, reading the patterns of the stars across the sky. When at last she had run away from - "the system", they called it - the world had taken her in.
She felt the heat of her drink spreading to her hands. Wild tea. She missed the drink hot chocolate. Coffee could warm the mind, and tea the soul, but hot cocoa warmed the heart. She needed that right now. Humanity had been cold to her, and she could feel their ice threatening the outskirts of her heart.
She could feel her cloak stir around her as she reached her long, slender legs down and alighted with the tips of her toes on the ground. The dark feathers lightly brushed her calves. It was the one gift the gods had left her - an ability she didn't have, to transform, to fly. With a whoosh of air and a brush of cold against her skin, she left the ground, soaring into the stars.
The others followed her. She screeched at them, warning them back, but they stubbornly came. At last lights like cold, lifelessly twinkling jewels came into view over the horizon - a distant city. The occasional triumphant cry of a successful hunt changed to clamorous cries of confusion and distress. Aureola would have sighed, were she able in this form.
Humans - why was it written in the celestial history that they were the crowning glory of the gods' achievements. Even they had long debated - 'Are we a failed experiment?' With the little self-awareness they had, they recognized their deeply-flawed nature. What was so special about them?
"Potential," the star-song whispered. Aureola scoffed. What was potential, scientifically, but the ability to change? And where, scientifically, did such change occur? Forest fires and earthquakes. At the top of a 'roller-coaster', where the only possible direction to go was down. That was a man-made device, and by man's own words; "It's all downhill from here," "You're going down," "break down," "let down," even "fallen," or "fallen from grace" - that was not a good thing. Going down, falling, meant you were going to hit the ground, meant you were going to break and shatter into a million tiny pieces of glittering glass that no one could ever put back together...
The thought that she had been entertaining for some time now swirled into her head like ink through water, venom through blood.
She could destroy them. Very easily, barely having to lift a finger, she could rid the planet of these monsters. She could take her anger out on them, make them die in fire and agony - but she would never do such a thing. It was tempting, sometimes, but she would carry their dying pain for eternity. No, she would be merciful, extinguish them swiftly and painlessly, like a candle in a gentle breeze.
There would be no more war. No more pollution. No more deforestation and oil spills. No more immoral politicians encouraging hate in citizens of countries marketed as 'bastions of tolerance'. Even the 'freest countries couldn't claim more than that, couldn't pretend that they loved and accepted those they did not consider 'their own'. The 'other' had to be thieves, rapists, murderers. Never mind they look to their 'own' and see their accusations partially reflected therein, as anywhere. There would be no more violence incited by petty differences - pigmentation, genitalia, currency, which of the gods that had abandoned them that they prayed to. There would be no more pettiness that the humans were so good at - teenagers screaming 'I hate you' because their parents made them come home a half an hour too early, partners leaving each other because for arbitrary reasons, people making excuses. 'I can't help myself, I only did it once, it's not hurting anyone but me.' No more.
Gliding down in the stealth the night afforded, she reached the small grove nestled in the desert hills outside the city. The mist of the forest had been left far behind, and with it, the ethereal, haunted feeling of the fading trees. The air was clear and clean, fresh from a rare desert storm. With it, as she threw her hood back, she felt her head start to clear. She could see now what this dark resentment masked.
Loneliness. Fear. Abandonment. Sorrow. Grief. All of these in abundance.
She was startled by the rustling of bushes and the soft noises of breathless crying. She crouched low, remembering that she was near the outlying houses, where the 'rich' humans lived.
A simple girl, with unremarkable features. It was only as her eyes passed over the spot where Aureola hid that the goddess nearly gasped, her heart reacting in ways she couldn't fully recognize. With her own mind unclouded, she could see through the fog of desperation. "A window to the soul", indeed - as the humans put it. Always had the windows she had seen been closed, shuttered, boarded, and locked. Hers were open, vulnerable. Hers were a mirror.
Aureola stepped forward, approaching the girl like she would a wounded animal. The girl didn't notice, at first, and took out some small, unidentifiable shadows. As Aureola adjusted her vision, she recognized the girl's intent.
"No," she yelped breathlessly, knocking the objects from her hand as she raised them towards her lips. She grasped the girl's wrist, reaching for her other as the girl struggled and lashed out. Within a short span of time, she fell limp, breathing raggedly. Her eyes were closed as she awaited her fate.
Aureola's head spun. Why? She had just finished contemplating wiping all humans out, so why was it so important to save even just one? It wasn't love - she had just met them, and she knew well enough that as much as the humans wrote love as salvation for the lost, the holy guide to bring even the devil back to light, it was not so. She knew also that this was not cynicism on her part - though she had experienced no abundance of love herself, she had felt the best of it empathetically. She was a goddess, after all.
"Please," she found herself saying. "Don't. Don't leave me alone." She was startled when a drop of water landed on the girl's face, startling her eyes open. Reaching to her cheek with shaking fingertips, she hazily noticed it wet with tears.
"I know you," she cried desperately. "You cannot do this. I need you."
"No one needs me," the girl said, her voice dull with a numbness beyond despair. Her breath, though, hitched at the end. Could it be a tiny bit of desperate hope persisted despite all? Aureola knew it had to be.
Aureola reached down and tenderly stroked her cheek. The girl leaned into it as if she was starving for a touch of affection. She was, Aureola knew.
"Let me prove you wrong," she said. There was a feeling growing inside of her, as if she was lowering a crucial puzzle piece into place, one that made the picture make sense. A halo of light surrounded her hand, passing her true gift to the girl below. Her destiny, if there were such a thing; her reason for existing, for sure. Something that not even the stars with their infinite knowledge could reveal to her, because until it came to her, it was unknown.
Creation was the realm of the gods, but to create a god?
The glow faded from Aureola, though her identity and power remained. The girl seemed surrounded still by a halo that only the other goddess could see. She gasped as knowledge, sensation, emotion, and deeper things flooded her being. Aureola waited patiently, until the sky was blue and gold with the coming dawn.
Finally, as the girl looked up at her with fawn-eyes of wonder, she spoke.
"Name yourself," she murmured.
The girl considered. There was fear and sadness still in her eyes, fear and sadness that Aureola knew would never fully leave. Even gods were deeply flawed, after all. "I think, therefore I am -" flawed, the saying should go. The capacity for capacity, the potential to change - that lent the power to be wrong, to be broken, to not be whole. But there was peace also, in the girl's eyes.
A songbird alighted on the girl's shoulder as she pushed herself up. "Umbra," she quavered, managing a wavering smile. The sun's reaching rays shone through her pale hair. Her sunrise eyes
burned.
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